I am never me

   I am never me,

  They dont allow to be.

  So many reasons,

  that make me hibernate in various seasons.

  No I dont die..

  I just lie.

  For him, for them,

  For family for world.

   I know I cant be me,

  Coz thats how they wanna see.

  Have to be loving, have to be giving

  Thats the cost I pay for my living.

  But then theres another she

  The “Me within Me”.

  Who cries who shouts,

  Whose ugly whos stout.

  I know that has to be hidden,

  For ages its been forbidden.

  And so I kill the me within me..

  Thats how its meant to be.

  Am strong, I can endure,

  But I want someone to hold me for sure.

  To be strong, to walk along.

  Or I shall break and so would the world,

  It would go curled and swirled and hurled.

  I promise to resist till I can,

  Still I want you to be a wise man.

  To love, to hold, to listen to me,

  And I know in you, I shall see my thee.

  ~~Pali